tag:dreamwidth.org,2010-07-07:528325Transmilitant FtM WannabeWho is Gender? Where is Sex?Discord2010-07-07T15:36:57Ztag:dreamwidth.org,2010-07-07:528325:694About Me (and this blog)2010-07-07T15:36:57Z2010-07-07T15:36:57Zpublic0I've spent a lot of time trying to figure out how to write my very first journal entry. I decided that maybe the best way would be to shatter your brain.<br /><br /><img width="250px" alt="" src="http://i262.photobucket.com/albums/ii101/QuatreBornes/etc/me/20100416-160552.jpg" /><span class="cut-wrapper"><span style="display: none;" id="span-cuttag___1" class="cuttag"></span><b class="cut-open">( </b><b class="cut-text"><a href="https://inherent-discord.dreamwidth.org/694.html#cutid1">Read more...</a></b><b class="cut-close"> )</b></span><div style="display: none;" id="div-cuttag___1" aria-live="assertive"></div><br />This incredibly long explanation of the trans universe aside, I was born a female. I am currently 22 years old and enlisted into the United States Navy as a female. I have never taken any hormones, never been to a psychologist for my 'gender issues' and am generally lumped in with what is known as "pre-op"s. pre- [sex change] operation.<br /><span class="cut-wrapper"><span style="display: none;" id="span-cuttag___2" class="cuttag"></span><b class="cut-open">( </b><b class="cut-text"><a href="https://inherent-discord.dreamwidth.org/694.html#cutid2">Read more...</a></b><b class="cut-close"> )</b></span><div style="display: none;" id="div-cuttag___2" aria-live="assertive"></div><br />I'm not exactly sure where I fall within that spectrum, so I have always referred to myself as simply androgyne.<br />When I was in college, I openly identified as such and dressed specifically to confuse people (I believe the word for that now is a genderfuck). I had convinced myself any type of surgery was impossible to achieve because no one would let me get what I wanted- basically a sexless body. I also never believed I'd have the money. Some time later I joined the military, and it was then I realized through massive amounts of 'net surfing and self discovery that, hey wait-- I <i>can</i> get this stuff done, and I <i>will</i> have enough money to do it [eventually].<br /><span class="cut-wrapper"><span style="display: none;" id="span-cuttag___3" class="cuttag"></span><b class="cut-open">( </b><b class="cut-text"><a href="https://inherent-discord.dreamwidth.org/694.html#cutid3">Read more...</a></b><b class="cut-close"> )</b></span><div style="display: none;" id="div-cuttag___3" aria-live="assertive"></div><br />Regardless, this blog is a personal one. Just day to day dumb and probably emo stuff. Things that pretty much any transperson will go through, but with the added bonus/stress/entertainment of me not <i>really</i> being an FtM and my very real risk of being booted out of the military for being "psychologically unfit". Maybe people can help me somehow and my experiences will help other people.<br /><span class="cut-wrapper"><span style="display: none;" id="span-cuttag___4" class="cuttag"></span><b class="cut-open">( </b><b class="cut-text"><a href="https://inherent-discord.dreamwidth.org/694.html#cutid4">Read more...</a></b><b class="cut-close"> )</b></span><div style="display: none;" id="div-cuttag___4" aria-live="assertive"></div><br />Thank you for your time and yes, unfortunately most of my entries are going to be this painfully long.<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=inherent_discord&ditemid=694" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> comments